yours truly is no longer on blogspot.

but here. http://raihanmm.tumblr.com/

:)

rainbow !

hey!

i thot i've warned u people that there will be less updates when i'm home right? but i know u guys been missing me thats why i'm here ;)

well so far my holiday is GREAT & fully occupied! just got back from Kuala Lumpur few days back with my family. did some shopping , and bought myself a super awesome studded ankle boot which i'm not going to show here, but seriously UBER cool weihh! HAHAH! just spot me when i wear them! ;pp

oh and theres one gorgeous bag that i really wanted to buy the other day but considering the fact that i got mountain of bags already & the bag is kind of over-priced for me & i have to control my spending so yeah bye bye gorgeous bag... ;// FOR NOW. lets just hope i can control myself till 4th Jan or else, u might wanna check my blog again for a special "gorgeous bag" update! (omg so typical!)

other than shopping malls, my holiday is more of spending time with the family. makan2, lepak2, tgk tv, u know the usuals...and it felt so good to be home. i really dont wanna go back to INDIA ;/ just 12 days left & hello BORING life ! blerghh...

just a random picture from my blackberry; so that this post will not be so dull ;)

ok! thats all for now. i might be going to Singapore for boxing day with my best friend and i'll update u guys about that once i'm back ;)

take care !

xx

last time .

"i seriously don't know where i stand when it comes to u & your 'having-fun-time'. its like i am not even in your mind at all and suddenly i am NO ONE. but i'm used to it already & i'm cool with that! wow seems like i'm cool with EVERYTHING now. i just hope that i don't burst one day, no no better not ;DD and TRUST me this is the LAST time u are going to hear me babbling about something u guys don't even understand!"

ok WTF dah nak balik Malaysia pun nak emo2! hahah! forget about that! in 24hours from now i'll be at the airport already waiting for my flight to board! AWESOMENESS ;)) ayah baru je call and he's going to fetch me, yeayyy! we are going to have our breakfast (since my arrival is at 7am) straight away after that. TAK sabar nya ;D and he told me that we are going to Kuala Lumpur the next day itself! see ? day 1 pun dah BUSY! ohhhh i miss driving ;)

i still haven't packed anything yet which i'm going to do right after i'm done with class tomorrow! hopefully i wont forget anything important because i am soooo not a last minute person in matter like this (in studies, YES i am haha) blame all my tests & seminars & tutorials that keep me INSANE !

i better go and read my ophthalmology now (even though i'm NOT in the mood. at ALL) but what to do as if i got any option right! i leave u guys with one link, check it out IF u are bored ok? http://athirahawesome.blogspot.com/2009/12/tak-boleh-dibiarkan.html (i said IF and ONLY IF u are bored).

OMG i can smell home already ;))

xx

wrap up !

wow what happened to me? lama gila tak update blog weihhh! rindu rindu rindu (ewwww) yeah i was BUSY remember? and i'm still busy actually but i think a quick update wont affect anything! if i could spent 2hours napping despite of tons of reading to be done, and 24hours facebook-ing (haha!) my blog deserves my minutes too ;) ok just few more headaches before holiday starts and i'm off to home sweet home !

let's see whats left! i still got one forensic medicine exam tomorrow, one ophthalmology end posting exam & pathology tutorial on Wednesday, then here come my GREATEST escape that I've been waiting for on that same Wednesday! cant believe my countdown is ALMOST over ;))))

so i'll be in Malaysia from 16/12/09 to 04/01/10 & i am very sure i'm going to have lotssss & lotsssss of fun, so excuse me for being quiet once i'm home. but of course i'll update u guys once in awhile IF time permits (cause i can be very busy at home even by doing nothing ;p)

let me wish u people happy holiday in advance, enjoy your Christmas, enjoy BOXING DAY (ehem ehem) enjoy new year, n last but not least enjoy yourself EXPLORING India to all my friends who are going to spend their holiday here, hi hi hi ;pp oh come on, we all know that India is actually VERY interesting right! so don't be sad ok? HAHAHA (ok im evil)

p/s; is this my last post for 2009? omg sooo not special ! *well i hope not

i am busy .

Thursday 10/12/09

-pathology tutorial (1-2pm)

-microbiology test (2-3pm)

Saturday 12/12/09

-pharmacology clinical research (9-4pm)

Monday 14/12/09

-pharmacology seminar (3-4pm)

Tuesday 15/12/09

-forensic medicine test (2-3pm)

Wednesday 16/12/09

-ophthalmology end posting exam (9-12pm)

-pathology tutorial (2-3pm)

-MALAYSIA here i come (11pm)

and of course clinics, theory classes and practicals in between, going on AS USUAL from 8am-430pm EVERY DAY!

yes i'm a busy woman! EVERY WEEK pun macam ni la schedule i ok? yes setiap minggu! boleh jadi gila in no time seriously. so harap2 balik Malaysia boleh tenangkan fikiran ;) but wait a sec, balik dari Malaysia nnti dah nak FINAL exam pulak which is equal to MORE depression! i guess tekanan perasaan kita org memang tak kan berakhir ;//

ya Allah ya tuhan ku, berikanlah kekuatan kepada hamba mu yang lemah ini. Amin...

p/s; percayalah korang memang tak kan dapat tandingi kesibukan ni..

inul , jakarta .

Ok its time for restaurant review! i just had a delicious dinner at this one place called ELEMENTS and i highly recommend u people to go if u feel like u need to award yourself after successfully attended the nerve wracking pharmacology seminar! especially the one that u thot of not going at the first place but u still went because u are one good girl, like me! BAHAHA ;p

the reasons why you should try ELEMENTS;

1) its near from college. u see fun world, and theres one petrol bunk right? yeah take that left turn, and go straight until u see airtel office on your left, and keep going (slowly because u r almost there) and ELEMENTS is on your left side too.

2) VERY cheap. one platter of seafood is just rs.300.

3) endless menu to choose from! (i hate this part tho) VERY confusing. feel like trying ALL of them.

4) they got sheesha ;) *i should try this again (the first & last time i did this was like years ago with my best friend) omg am i lame? HAHA!

5) of course sebab sedapppppp ;D

my rs.300 special seafood steak with cheese sauce.

ok note to yourself; u dont have to dress fancy because its a very 'santai' restaurant with a Mediterranean concept (sesuai sgt utk pergi lepas seminar ;p) own by an Indonesian who happened to be there just now and of course being very friendly to us (afiq to be exact, HAHA). Most importing thing is, HALAL :)) semua ada! ayam daging kambing sotong ikan udang ketam lobster, ha pilih2!

u people should try! but if its me who is left behind here, then my bad ;p

thank u so much .

if u ever feel lonely and messy and sad and frustrated and whatnot, but u still have to live because committing suicide is prohibited in Islam, i suggest u to call your nearest baskin robbins and asked them to deliver u buckets & buckets of ice cream right to your doorstep ;)) because it works for me,really! (not that i try to kill myself, nauzubillah!)

i'm just going through a MASSIVE transformation right now, and not dare to say i'm OK because i am obviously NOT (just look at my post(s) right) but i'm trying my VERY best to adapt with this, slowly. and i think i did ok so far.

thanks to medicine, thanks to all the shit load of homeworks, thanks to the endless tests and seminars, thanks baskin ;)

so to whoever out there who feels sad & gloomy, wake up! its time to see the sunshine again! go eat anything u feel like eating! its the best time to gain weight after all! ok enough raihan, everybody is happy so just talk to yourself, hahaha ;))

get back up ;)

I feel bad for being useless to myself these past 2days. I downloaded like 7movies so that I can watch them & just stay in bed the whole day, locked myself up in my room until my own housemate left me a stick-on-note on the fridge just to tell me things, I’ve been eating JUNKS and I’m pretty sure if I am allowed to get drunk I would have been beyond drunk right now! And I ditched on my girlfriends outing plan because I don’t feel like going out. How useless is that?

But then I realized that this really wasn’t me. I’m not like this. So I get up from my bed at 7 in the EVENING to start my day! Pretty late I know, but I convinced myself that this could never be too late and I feel like a whole new spirit got into my body!

so I took my bath (my morning bath that is), clean up the total MESS around my bed, and start making myself useful again ;)) I look around the four walls thinking of what to do and I spotted my wardrobe! The last time I checked on it was like ages ago, and I’m so surprised it look like this; like eww!

Ok obviously Mr.wardrobe needs my help! I gather all my strength to pull out EVERYTHING, and thot of sorting them from scratch all over again! like come on right, this is a very easy job for me, no problem at all i can do it. so i keep on digging and digging my wardrobe until its totally EMPTY, and oh mi god i almost fainted when i see this;

i was like, holy shit where do i start now?! i cant just give up because where the hell am i going to sleep if i din finish this tonight! so sloooooowly i picked up one bye one, n choose which one goes back in the wardrobe, which one deserves to bid goodbye, and which are going back forever to Malaysia with me!

MALAYSIA ❤ 10 days to go

tiring but VERY satisfying ;)

of course after throwing A LOT of things.

but since i don't feel like i've done enough to make it up to myself for being useless before, i even cleaned my shoes! throw away few VERY OLD pairs, and rearrange them ;)

now theres only one thing left! i think i need to do some shopping tomorrow ;) to replace all the things that i "threw" during my cleaning up session! hihi ;p may be 2 pairs of shoes and a couple of tops will do just fine! dont u think so? ok we are really talking about myself now huh? ;D

p/s; BEX died this morning. . .rest in peace buddy.

bye bye world !

who said i wasnt serious about this whole movie marathon thingy?

ignore the tissue box, im SERIOUSLY not watching hindi movies or cerekerama ok!

so all i got to do now is turn off the light, get in my blanket and click on the play button ;) i know it looked really messy up there, and in fact, i'm pretty messed up myself ! but hey, just one night couldn't be so wrong right ? i know this will take my mind off things ! well , HOPEFULLY ;)

total movies ; 5 !

part 2

i sketched BEX (at least the BEX that i imagine) on my note book during class since i had a boring lecture today! it seems like i am so obsessed with him right now din i? the truth is, i still cant believe my sister is so into this n its DRAGON for god sake! HAHA! ok isn't he cute? my version of BEX! i know he must be wayyy UGLIER than this, kan Athirah? ;p and btw, just so i thot BEX is all about "bagi makan, cuci berak, n tidur", my sister told me another stupid thing about him. she even send him to SCHOOL!? hahahahahahah! seriously, wtf!

p/s; i think i should get one too. not that im interested, HELL no. i just wanna do some RESEARCH (chehhhh ;p)

his name is BEX !

hello people!

i just got back from my class and i'm pretty exhausted ;/ my test was ok (i guess) and now all i wanted to do is just curl in bed, watch some movies and sleep with NO alarm ! fewhhh i feel calm just by listing it. medic is TIRING seriously. . . .

i bet some of my friends are already in M.G road by now to do some retail therapy, or treat themselves with GRAND dinner tonight because i kid u not, this week has been a very restLESS week to all of us. but then again that doesn't mean its OVER. since upcoming weeks will be the same! seminars tutorials tests bla bla bla. . .MUAK nyaaaa ;S

Looking on the bright side, at least they make us study EVERYDAY now, very istiqamah kan. hopefully this will help us for our final professional exams. insyallah ;) *positive weihh! ahh cuak pulak ingat dah nak final, hu hu hu ;/ ok enough about education!

oh oh one more thing before i go! what do you guys think of a virtual pet? my sister has a virtual pet now (the tamaguchi one) his name is BEX. she feeds him, washed his poops, sent him to bed, n what bathed him? HAHAHA stupid. well i think virtual pet is meant for someone who's in REAL life is SCARED of a pet, i mean CAT to be exact,hihih! she even claimed that BEX is very addictive! oh god. how can u be addicted to something like this;

then i asked her, so what is BEX? a cat? a dog? n guess what! BEX is a DRAGON! wow, very BRAVE sister very BRAVE! i really cant wait to pat BEX's head when im back . . . . .

p/s; and yes im talking about my 19 years old sister !

dearly.

I've been thinking about how GREAT it will be if I could spend a vacation with my best friends to any place in this world like TOO much lately! I keep on imagining the scenery of this one place I don’t know where (but not Malaysia) with us laughing and taking pictures and holding hands and do all the crazy stuffs together, every night before I went to sleep. Ok I know I’m crazy ;/

I strongly feel that, being with people who understands you PERFECTLY is the greatest thing someone could possibly asked for. Like seriously, we can do whatever things we feel like doing, we don’t have to hide anything from each other, n even when we did something wrong we just knew that these people will back us up not condemn, like any other USUAL friends.

But I know growing up is never gonna be easy. Stressful studies to catch up with, exams here and there, vacations fall on different date and time, and most importantly being THOUSAND MILES away from each other make it even MORE difficult to plan a DREAMFUL vacation like this. *sighhhhhhh ;( no matter how BADLY I want this to happen, I got to be REAL too, this isn’t EASY.

I wish that maybe, just MAYBE someday this PARTICULAR dream I’ve been dreaming of, will come true! So dear God, please grant us with LOTS of money and time to spend with each other, because this is ONE thing we’ve been planning since FOREVER. Amen.

p/s; i miss u people.

(◕‿◕✿)

Omg omg omg I’m so happy I gained 2kgs last night! ;D despite of this sudden attack of flu & fever ! I feel like jumping up & down from the weighing machine, seriously! hihi ;) call me gedik or whatever, as if I care ;p ! Just so u know it is EXTREMELY hard for me to gain weight just like how HARD it is for u to lose it! Blame my metabolism!

I called mom this evening, and she’s so worried to know that I’m down with fever. Even more worried when she heard my SENGAU voice! But the thing is, I am very sure I din tell her anything about it before. Then I asked from where she knew this? She simply replies “ibu pun reti guna internet” whoaaaa! Hahah! She’s so cute ;))

Apparently dad is excited about me coming back too! He has started planning for mom on what to cook n I heard he mentioned something like CRAB!? He said “kesian akak mesti dah lama tak makan ketam!” u r so right daddy ;D don’t u just love my parents? ;p

Ok here goes my countdown! MALAYSIA❤ 16 days to go!! I told u time flies fast! ;))

Wish me luck for my endless tests this week people! I got 2 pathology papers on subsequent Wednesday & Thursday. And to add up this torture, another microbiology test on that same Thursday! PERFECT right! So I better start studying now! May be I’ll be too busy to update my blog this week. Just a notification in advance!

have a joyful week everyone ! ;]

MC.

yours truly is very sick right now. shes down with fever, headache, and flu *srooooot. hence, she'll be back writing to u when she feels better, hopefully SOON. shes so stubborn she dont want to take any medication because she thinks her immune system is strong enough that they can combat this ALONE. we'll see how long she'll survive.

but shes so sad, she missed all the open houses during this aidiladha celebration! she keeps on thinking about the RENDANG and what ever menu her friends made, and all the fun ;(( lets pray for her speedy recovery so that she wont be sad anymore and can attend one last house tonight!

she sends her regards to all of u, readers. may all of u be in the pink of health.

❤'s

PA

marry me.

being as impatient as i am, i downloaded NEW MOON and watched it just now, alone. i just couldn't wait any longer for 4th December (please forgive this country) when all the people around the globe done talking about it already!

well i myself thot that the visual quality will be AWFUL since it is a new released movie, but hell no it was fine. not dare to say perfect, but yeah as long as i can see Edward in there, that's just more than enough! HAHAH ;p no no seriously gambar cantik, audio pun ok! siapa nak dtg la rumah ;)

obviously im not going to make a story telling here, i hate SPOILER as much as u do. just one thing to say, Edward is still my man tho both my brothers keep telling me Edward sucks, they rule for WEREWOLF. whatever u two! Jacob is handsome, agree. but come on...twilight is a VAMPIRE story! in the scale of 1-10 i give NEW MOON a 8.3!

ok i have to wake up early for aidhiladha celebration tomorrow! so got to go ;)) will be wearing my grey kurung! see ya!

p/s: Jacob's six packs...*DROOOOOOL ;p

ish ish ish. . .

tahu la esok hari raya, tapi x payah la sampai i call semua org kat rumah semua pun tak nak angkat kan ;(( telefon ayah, x angkat. telefon abang, x angkat. telefon tirah, x angkat. telefon eja pun tak angkat! dh nk give up dh last2 telefon nombor rumah BARU DENGAR agak nya dia org ni!

fine la ayah pergi masjid untuk takbir, sejuk hati x jadi nk merajuk. abang n ajib, TENGOK NEW MOON dengan kawan2?? grrr grrr grrr! yang lain kat dapur tolong ibu, bagus2 ;)) semua org ada kat rumah jealous tahap nak menangis! dh la ibu masak banyak gila lauk nasi beriyani ketupat semua ada ;((( hu hu hu. . . .

rajin nya budak2 ni ;p

but its ok! tak de hal la, lg 20 hari i balik! and tak payah tunggu raya pun ibu boleh masak semua tu ;DD heee! kalau dapat makan mee bandung special ibu pun sedap jugak ni! nyum nyum cant wait ;) sorry ye kawan2 i asyik cakap pasal nak balik je, sebab tengah HOMESICK gila sekarang!

slrrrrrpppppp ;p

ok! happy BAKRID people ;)

p/s: nak pakai baju kelabu ke biru ke pink eh saturday ni?

come home !

As if from today, Wednesday 25 November 2009, my countdown for “MALAYSIA ❤ __ days to go!” is one day lesser than yesterday, and now it’s only 21 more days to go! Wehoooooo ;)) I know time flies fast, especially with all the endless tests, seminars, and tutorials that keep me BUSY nowadays, 16^th December is going to be SOONER than I thought!

I have decided that this time around, I’m not going to make it as a surprise anymore! So that mom will be home, not outside hanging around with her friends, or meeting here and there with the club whatever, and she can cook me DELICIOUS foods if she knew I’m coming back! And since school holidays started already, at least my siblings can get up early from bed (in my dream la kannnn), wait for me at the front door, give me a hug, ask for their souvenirs (yeahhh dh 10 kali balik, 10 kali la nak souvenir??) and continue to sleep. USELESS!

masak special ok ibu? ;))

After all surprises are meant to be exciting! If I make it too often, it’s not going to be exciting anymore! So yeah, right now I’m thinking of another surprise for dad’s coming birthday on the 24^th December. Hmmm hmmm ;)) ok! Let’s count the days together with me people! N See u soon MALAYSIA (◑‿◐)

p/s; I love surprises, don’t u get it?? *hinting someone* ;p

just a lil bit !

I had an introduction class on psychopharmacology this evening and I must say this to u, I personally think that each and every one of us suffered from MENTAL illness at least to some extend! (So from now on, I’ll be calling us (I’m not excluding myself) as psychotic patient, HAHA)

But then of course this depends on which psychiatric disorder u fall into! Let me see what we got over here…oh PERSONALITY disorders! Interesting! I can’t stop smiling while copying my lecture notes just now because every time my Doctor classified and explained each categories I actually have certain people in mind! Heh ;p

1. Unstable characteristic: today they treat u like a princess SUPER DUPER nice, and tomorrow like so sudden, they become a TOTAL jerk! OMG what the hell is wrong with u people? But wait a sec, why is this sound like someone VERY familiar to me? Hahah ;p
2. OBSESSION: why u so obsessed with me when everybody knows, lalalala *continue singing* HAHA. Yeah u can laugh, because as funny as u think I’m being perasan, I felt FUNNIER to actually been talked about at the first place by these obsessed people.
3. Mood depression: ok this sounds more like me (fair N Square now? Hihih) I ADMIT that I’m a person with a mood swing. I can be MAD at someone just because YM connection sucks at the time of having CRUCIAL conversations. Because I thot they haven’t replied me when they actually did, it’s just the CONNECTION PROBLEM. Omg I’m that annoying? HAHAH!
4. Dependant: I need not say anything, very SELF EXPLAINATORY.
5. Deviant eating: I swear I saw someone (u wont believe me If I tell who) eat a BLACKBOARD CHALK in front of my eyes! Of course she thot nobody saw what she’s doing. And its not just one time, I saw it again few days back. GULP.

Ok there are many MORE disorders that I din mentioned. But I got to stop now, and read pathology! All these tutorials and seminars are killing me softly I tell u! So don’t think u escaped from this MENTAL illness just because u are not any of these fives ok? Hahaha!

See u soon psychos ;))

right round right round.

As u people can see, I made few changes with my blog here and there as a comeback debut (heh ;p) I changed the background, I put those hyperactive-colorful-fishes for u guys to play with, n I even let you people read my twitter updates unnecessarily, HAHA! So tell me which part of my life is a secret now? Seems like u guys know everything already! ;p WOWWW.

But one of the changes that I find very interesting and USEFUL is the live traffic feed! Not only I got to see who’s reading my writings, it actually helped me with my GEOGRAPHY! Because every time I saw a weird location/flag on my feed (obviously INDIAN flags predominate, HAHA) I’ll Google to see which country that belongs to!

So now I know, Oslo is in Norway and Gdansk is in Poland! And the flag that looked similar with Indian flag is Dubai (I mean the color combination, hihi) see? Isn’t this USEFUL? For my general knowledge at least? Ok just don’t tell me I’m the only one who doesn’t know about Oslo n Gdansk! HAHA! But whatever, now I know ;)

I hope I’ll see a lot more weird locations on my feed, so that at the end of the day, I’m not just a boring blogger but a walking ATLAS! Hahah!

p/s; dont be shy to come again, friends n foes (if any ;p)

if its not too late ;)

Don’t u just love it when it’s Sunday, and it’s a PRODUCTIVE-day? Well I do ;) I feel so much USEFUL to wake up as early as 930 (I mean SUPER early since its Sunday) and do all my chores. Changed my bed sheet, swept my room, mopped the floor, fold my clothes, do the laundry, clean the toilet, and when I’m done, I made myself a cup of hot chocolate and Skype with best friend! ;D just perfect!

self satisfaction ;)

Surprisingly instead of being tired, I’m actually enjoying myself doing all those things ;) I guess a *coughs* tidy person *coughs* like me, really wouldn’t mind! ;p HAHAH. But seriously this is my idea of a perfect Sunday! You know just stay home, relax ;)

So I better keep this productivity going on till the end of the day! My pharmacology text book is waiting for me already!

Have a wonderful Sunday people ;))