Saturday, January 31, 2009
i seriously cnt tk this anymore! u know how irritating it is when ur yahoo messenger keep on sign in and out like every 2seconds???? i cnt even type one full sentence for god sake! i really dont know wht is the problem. to say tht my internet connection is bad, i dont think so. because i cn watch youtube without buffering, i cn dl one episode of lipstick jungle in 45minutes, just click any picture from fb or myspace it'll appear automatically. so why the hell my ym treating me like this???
im not the only one who got irritated with my stupid ym, my frens too. because i keep on popping on their screen saying im in and suddenly im out. forgive my useless ym people. i got soooo emotional i even treat you like shit, as in u r my problem and im deeply sorry. thnk god u undrstnd. ok sy siap hentak2 laptop jugak akibat bengang yg amat sgt dgn ym sy. i din mean to lappy, and i know u undrstnd me too.
im seriously giving up! i think i might end up with hypertension and stress jst because of this problem! i dont know wht to do. ohhhh people plisss help me. wht shud i do? like honestly im not an IT girl and know nothing about technology *tau siket lh*. shud i delete my ym and reinstall?? sy serious x boleh tahan ni. kalau lh boleh ckp ngn ym mmg dh maki hamun dia. haishhhh.
for the time being, i'll just appear invisible and plis buzz if theres importnt thing to tell. for the convenient of all, so tht im not disturbing ur screen anymore. *biar lh sy saket hati sorng*. and add me on msn email@example.com because seriously msn nvr dissapoint me. yet.
*ini mmg entry emo. sy minta maaf sekali lg*
Friday, January 30, 2009
to my brother, mohamad najib, sayangi lh nyawa anda!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
my reason, my unconditional love :)
p/s: It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change.
Monday, January 26, 2009
gmbr hiasan semata2: sy ke commercial street sorng2 utk lunch hr ini :)
[once upon a time] my ambition ws to be an architect and only architect. i ws really inspired by ayah and proud to see all the houses, buildings, schools, etc etc etc designed by him. i used to help him do the coloring on the plan. like red for the roof and blue for the wall, *ok x berapa nk ingt dh color2 dia*. and many times when we were in the car passing few houses, he went like "rumah ni ayah yg designed, rumah ni pon, ni pon.." . isnt that great?
i used to love art, still loving it actually. ayah keeps on asking me everytime i designed my own tshirt, and shoes, and looking at my super nice handwriting *yg bagi dia mcm x sesuai je dgn doctor*, "buat double degree lh kak?" *as in medicine and art ke ape*. i wud love to. bt mayb after i completed this very challenging MBBS :)
[once upon a time] i really dont knw how to cook. and i nvr cook for myself. bt now, i am very sure that ibu is soooooo proud that i cn cook very well! like a pro *ok ini tipu* HAHAHA.
ibu: akak lunch ape hari ni?
me: ayam msk lemak cili api.
ibu: masak sendiri ke beli?
me: eh masak sendiri lh....
ibu: wah bagus2. nnti blk mlysia boleh msk.
i am proud of my self too. i nvr knew i cn cook this well. and im sure this talent is inherited from ibu. *ibu is very well known among her friends and families for serving a super delicious dishes* yg ni sumpah x tipu.
[once upon a time] i used to participate in all types of competition. especially in syarahan, debate, story telling, public speaking, and im soooo good in it. i represent johor for national level several times. and i cn consider myself as a tough competitor. i am not afraid at all to speak infront of thousands people. bt now, im not intrested anymore and i jst dnt knw why.
well, im not regret that im doing medicine nw bt not architecture. im proud that i cn cook. and i am disappointed i let down something i cn really outshine with, my speaking. so! whts ur [once upon a time]?
p/s: give a man a fish and u feed him for a day. teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
i dont hv any issue to write for now, bt will definitely update as soon as i got the ideas. the picture below ws taken jst nw, b4 i went to ezzah's housewarming. we hd yassin reading and makan2 of course. the food was AMAZINGLY good n thanx for inviting us.
sungguh comel gadis ini kn? i wnt to wear this kind of tudung when the time comes :)
p/s: your mind will answer most questions if u learn to relax and wait for the answer
Saturday, January 24, 2009
i think im in love with my Dr! HAHAHA. but seriously, i really dont want to escape even one day of my clinical posting, i feel like going to the hospital everyday, and i really like it when he looked me in the eyes and clarify all my doubts. i like it when he smiles, i like it when hes with his patient and how he treat them.
he's very close to us. we cn even lepak together having coffee and discuss about the cases we seen in like a very informal way, *i dont think other med studnt gt this opportunity*. cn u imagine, a super senior surgeon ajak kita org tea break di tgh2 sesi pembelajaran? i sooooo love u! heh :)
and i wanna say thank u so much for making this MBBS really intresting, and your advice yg sumpah sampai terus ke hati tu, and for this semangat yg sy x pernah rs sebelum ni. yes, i fall for u Dr, of course in a right way.
p/s: he who wants a rose must respect the thorn
Friday, January 23, 2009
yes i am. i live in kota tinggi johor. a small town, not as fancy as ur place i supposed. bt enough to mk me n my family live happily until now. a place where i spent my childhood, my first time education, and my lifetime experienced.
i am not ashame to admit who i am. is it embarrassing to admit who u are, where u come from, or whtevr matters concern with life? then y shud u? i've been mingling with all sorts of people and i cn really see whos real and whos not.
so stop being ashamed, stop telling lies, stop hiding things. just be proud for who u are and others will respect u for that. be proud of something u r not, and others will just laugh n smile.
p/s:be who u are and say what u feel because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind :)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
as you know in fashion, one day u are in and the next day u are out. i'm sure everyone of us has their own fashion icon, or idol or whatevr u call them. be it simple, high fashion, versatile, classic, vintage, rock, gothic, etc etc etc.
i know we realize that this phenomena or i rather say TREND keeps on changing from time to time. not just in fashion, instead in everything. gadgets, foods, musics,...ok ANYTHING. and everybody has their own right to be part of it. lets quote some examples here.
1) [fashion] we hardly seen people wearing leggings, skinny jeans, fedora, head band, long necklaces, oversized sunglasses and bags, gladiator shoes, etc etc etc, few years back. but now everybody owns one. its not that there are newly found/invented/designed/created. in fact, they existed since our mom's teenage time. this is what we called TREND.
so what if your shoes, or bags, or dresses, or whatever is exactly like others? they did not designed it just for ourself isnt it? even limited edition is not that limited after all. that is why theres a slot in magazines, "which celebrity wear it best". dont we all love competition? well i do :)
2) [gadgets] digital camera is the fanciest thing everyone could hve 2 to 3 years back. now, dslr camera is the in thing, even to those who do not know how to operate n use it to its fullest function *including me, i asked ayah to buy me one for my birthday and HONESTLY its not because of its function, bt because i find it cool to hang it around my neck, tp x beli pon*. not to mention ipod, iphone and whtevr i-thing they hv in the market, its all become TREND.
lots of people own a dslr camera now, bt dont u think only the one who is talented and artistic, captured the most beuatiful pictures? so, if they wanna hv it, let them! because only the best man wins :)
3) [others] in-thing: cupcakes, e-shopping, indi-music etc etc etc.contoh: crocs, so what kalau semua org pon ade crocs? ::me n tey::
so ape yg saya nk ckp di sini adalah, theres no such thing like siapa tiru siapa, and there should not be any issues like i buy it first so u cnt buy, i pakai dulu so u xboleh pakai, or whtevr maybe the reasons. to those who i accidentally bought the same stuffs like yours, im sorry. n to those who accidentally/purposely bought anything exactly like mine, i dont mind at all, cause i know i wear it best :) HAHAHA.
p/s:on matters of style, swim with the current, on matters of principle, stand like a rock :)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
but the situation differs now. none of the messages i've got from esprit,tommy hilfiger,spriengfield and many others telling tht they are having major discount could attract my temptations to go n shop. its been ages since i last visited a cinema. and im not really into socializing with my friends n keeps on declining them.and i prefer to stay home and hv time for myself.
what is happening to me? normal kah sy? or is this just a seasonal disorder and im going to recover soon? or hv i reached a point "that i hd enough n its time to be serious"? or bcause of my concious awareness that im not going to spend my money on something unnecessary? or am i really losing my talent to waste my money n time? hahah!
and no matter wht the reason is, i hope everybody cn accept and understand my situation :)
p/s:true friends come in a good times when we tell them to, and come in the bad times without calling.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
ibu:akak balik x bulan march ni?
me:xtau lh lg. tp semua org mcm dh bz2 je beli tckt
ibu:balik je lh..cuti2 mlysia lg. jln2 india lain kali pon boleh.
me:OK!! (dengan riang nye)
its only been 1week since i came bck from mlysia. n now ibu encourages me to go back again. i understand wht she's trying to say. selagi ayah ngn ibu ni masih ada, rajin2 lh kamu balik. nnti kalau dh xde, kamu nk tour mana2 pon suka hati kamu (dalam bahasa kasar nya).
i cn really see a point there. im not trying to act like a spoilt yg asyik nk balik je every holiday. i just dont want to regret one day that i din spend my time with ibu and ayah semasa mereka masih ada. i love u ibu. i love u ayah :)
p/s:it is better to be hated for what u r, than to be loved for wht u r not.
to my bag holder: im sorry i've been overdosed you. n thanks for holding it this long :)
and because of this incidence, i realized how i really dont need another bag and how i cn save my money from spending it to something i already have. perubahan utk berjimat cermat lah katakan :). and the best part is......i've found quite amount of money yg terselit2 in those bags yg dh bersepah atas lantai semasa mengemas2 nye! isnt that nice??? so! the moral of the story is, x susah pon nak berubah sbnrnye and i thank ALLAH for making it easier for me! the only problem now is, mana nk letak bag2 ni semua??? hmmmh..
p/s: tidak akan ada kejayaan tanpa perlu bersusah susah.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
well me too. im in a transition state nw. to be a bttr person. n i am trying hard to:
1)tidak lg meninggal kn solat fardhu *especially subuh*
4)menjadi seorang yg sentiasa disenangi oleh semua org.
i knw its hard. with people badmouthing about me when im trying to be good. they laughed n making fun of me because they thot i wont nvr changed.. i just hope this is the best for me. n this spirit to change wont fade away. n thanks to u for your support, i cnt nvr do this alone.
p/s: ALLAH tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum, melainkan kaum itu mengubah nasib nya sendiri.
one day,while we were waiting for Dr.manohar in his room, came ths middle-aged lady looking for him. she looked at us n smile, knowing that we are the medical students and to be precised, Dr.manohar's student, she suddenly said
"u r all medical studnts right? u r very lucky to hv Dr.manohar. he's very good and kind. still here doing his job with all his courage and spirit to share the knowledge with u. he's one of a kind, n very rare to find"
and when Dr.manohar came in, theres silence. after discussing with that lady about somthng we could nt undrstnd because of the language, she thanked our Dr like a zillionth times. so i assume shes one of the patinet's relative. somehow i cn feel how close he is with his patient. n to them our Dr.manohar is like their god.
n ths was my first time getting the chance to see how the surgery is done. of course we r not allowed to even touch anythng. for the first few minutes everythng goes well. and..and....suddenly!! hahah. i feel like fainting, nauseous, haishhh mcm2 lh lg.so i went out from the OT for few minutes, minum2 air sikit, tarik nafas n masuk balik OT. n after the surgery is successfully done, one of my friends askd "sbb darah td ke?" i was like, eh bongok nye, klu takut darah xde lh nk jd doktor kottttt. tp xckp lh. it was possibly because of the smell of whtevr medication n antiseptic inside the OT, smell exactly like a disection hall, full with the cadavers.
so thats all for now. my first time experienced wasnt that bad after all. n i hope one day, i cn b a successful n respectful doctor, jst like our beloved DR.MANOHAR :)